Remembering a kind and gentle person who welcomed everyone.
Sue saw no human barriers–she did not flinch from those who were downtrodden or with the last dollar in their pocket. She would treat each person as a gift from God. She gave of her heart completely. Sue has left us far too soon.
February 9, 1949 – November 9, 2012
Sue McIntyre
Red Orange Yellow Green Blue Indigo Violet
colors lightly dancing through her life
to the beat of the native drum
quick to help, to solve, to offer
to all that to her would come
a keen eye for justice
an open hand she always shared
her love for everyone
…no one she ever spared
her smile was effervescent…
a gentleness too kind for this world…
possessing a heart so soft
perhaps too caring for the cruelty sometimes hurled
Hummingbird would harken
if a poor homeless person a conversation needed
listening to her or his story
to human openness she heeded
perhaps she gave too much
some would say that she did
perhaps she needed more than we could give
so who is the lesser now that only we do live
perhaps she meant to tell us
to always love and forgive
perhaps that is the difference between saint and sinner
the ones who hold back and the ones who share their dinner
quickly her smile would be on her face…
a little giggle that was all her own
as she would run her fingers through her hair
like a finely grooming comb
akin to the hummingbird she was
quick-paced, flight to and fro
always seeking new ways
to love, to laugh, to grow
her red truck was a symbol
her bold determination
proudly proclaiming her stance
not fearing condemnation
more guts than most of us
a lesbian she was…a woman proud
she did not hide her truth
behind an ominous cloud
her blazing red truck
had every equality banner it could bear
the prism of rainbow color
was her badge of flare
she accepted herself as she was
it took courage to be “out”
she accepted her womanhood
it took courage amid the hateful shouts
she opened up the world to many
took no flight from the fight
she stood for honesty and truth
and for everyone their rights
her camera’s inner eye
felt the subtleties of life
the red barn on the hillside
the hummingbird’s fife
the curious little kitten
who braved the crack in the fence
the abandoned truck in the field
the barn silo guarding it intense
the turtles crossing unforgiven
the log of life, moment by moment, one by one
the seagull with its own reflection
in the blue ocean woven, its solo song sung
the rising of the sun
so gold and strong
the setting of the night
to her alone belonged
she endured
the rejection from her own
…she continued
looking for a home
yet in her darkest moment
she was alone
she forgot we were there
she did not reach for the phone
what shielded you from that love of ours
what dark force took hold of you those final hours
now I am left here
with remorse of what I could have should have done
now I am left here with a heart so broken, many words unspoken
run and find her so she would not feel shunned
Hummingbird was her chosen name…
her mind was as quick as its wings
her heart so genuine and true…
now her spirit sings
once her heart was close to mine
…once I held her to myself
and now she left for the great beyond
and my love sits on the shelf
Sue was who she was
who knew how delicate she was inside
she made no apologies
who understood the fears that did abide
who took the time to be by her side
perhaps her honesty was too much
a threat to reality for the rest of us
afraid to go beyond the human touch
why are we so slow to love?
now I feel her loneliness and pain..
why couldn’t we give her what she needed?
but I will never see her face again
the tears cascade
pain wrenches my heart
…for you i want to race…
oh my God, oh why, did we have to part
the rising of the sun
so strong
the setting of the night
with her there was no wrong
LOVE you have taken her home to yourself
with YOU she is at peace in the great above
we remain here on Earth
to continue with her love
***
we remain here to be the Hummingbird to others
we can only honor her by becoming …
…more open
…more receiving
…more listening
…more mindful
of how we affect one another
you ask us to be ready to be there… for someone might need us
Sue, you are now with God…basking in Her LOVE
I know light and peace surround you…
help us here on Earth to be the LIGHT you were to many
I miss you
and my heart grieves at your absence…
it is your birthday today…and today i found that you left us
so we celebrate you…we honor you…
help us to be as good to others as you always were…
goodbye my dear friend…adieu
I will seek you out in the morning dew…
your Spirit I pray shall make me new
Jane, this is a beautiful tribute to Sue. I can feel your sorrow and pain sweet heart. I am sure that now she is in peace.
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Jane, what a wonderful tribute to Sue. You are so wonderful with just the right words.
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Jane….how beautiful…you are the light shining on for Sue
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Wow Jane.. images flowed through my mind as I read your heartfelt tribute. Beautiful…. just beautiful.
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What a beautiful tribute. I am so sorry for your loss.
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What a Gentle Soul she was. She was blessed knowing you. Have a Great Day. I was in Insurance School and other things going on. Sorry I am delayed in all. Ah you had not played in a while so assumed your were done. So I deleted the games. Sorry. Have a great rest of the week.
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Your love your gentleness speaks in every word. Thank you for introducing her to me. I remember her without ever meeting
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I found the following words that a friend wrote to me regarding this piece of writing so helpful:
Jane,
Have just read – and re-read – “Sue’s Suicide”.
Sadness indeed, but we cannot accept responsibility OR credit for other lives, regrets OR happinesses. Nor can we live in the shadow of other’s lives and regrets. Oh, would it be – that we could snap our fingers and make it right – much like a Spider Man bandaid!
Be kind to yourself, my new friend….or as your Bubble Piece strongly suggests: LIVE LOVE….yourself!
Stay the course, Janie!
~peace,
Bobbi
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