friends for fifty-two years
then one day
you wake up
and you are airbrushed out of their life
no warning
no hint of friendship lost
did you really know the other
then the memories flood in
you think was it all for naught
you fight for its meaning
its relevance
where did the truth in it lie
how does one just walk away
no explanation
just silence
and once again
we are drawn into the abyss
searching for God to answer
well-meaning people will say
“she is on her own journey,
just leave it be…”
but they are not feeling what I am feeling
the gift that was lost
how did I fail
did I not honor friendship
what happened to loyalty
Jonathan and David is etched in my mind
well-meaning people will say
“get over it…move on”
many are uncomfortable with another person’s sorrow
and, so, I am left alone
until another tomorrow
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©Jane H. Johann, 2016
“Bellingham As the Sun Goes Down”…facing the San Juan Islands.
Footprints of Thoughts 
perhaps they moved ahead to show you the way, love has to give to survive, amen
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yes…that is a possibility…however, the person has become a recluse—shutting out everyone…I still am here, always waiting for the return…And, yes, I can even learn from that position of being. Allowing her to be a recluse–to be in her space, if that is what she needs…it is an absence clearly felt.
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Lovely……..
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thank you for your compliment and visit! Love your photos!
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Thank you so much for the reblog and compliment!
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My pleasure Johann
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Thats hard. Its such a shock when there is no explanation, no room for understanding. Im sorry for the friendship come and gone you thought you had. That is a long time. Do not look at it as your doing. I feel you are honest genuine and kindhearted. Maybe your own vulnerabilities and truth has made that person shut down to search inside themselves. maybe youve grown and they have not. However its still a hard loss to encounter. take your memories and wish them well in your head and maybe in the future who knows.
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I must honor the space she seems to need…thank you for your kind words
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Just sending you hugs, Jane. I am at the library and hard to process when there is a young man playing a video game and he is making little noises. I am smiling at him but saddened by your loss. Take it easy, friend. ❤
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dear Robin~ thank you for your kind thoughts and wishes…It has been over two years since the living departure…each day is a little easier. When we choose to be a friend, when we choose to love, we have to accept that loss will eventually come and accept that as part of the deal in our loving, ne c’est pas? It doesn’t take away from what was…it doesn’t take away the goodness given…I think I am off writing the beginning of a new poem! You inspired me! HUGS! Jane
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Oh, so glad our conversation led to a poem, Jane. Loss doesn’t really disappear but it fades and hurts less over time. . .
p.s. I love the French, which I had 1 year of, 8 years of Spanish. Yes, I do understand and see. . .
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Thank you for the inspiration of “Airbrush!” We do need each other on WordPress! and in life. I get so much good from this site! and have met very good people, like yourself. Robin! I am always trying to learn French. I understand basic French from my days in the convent, back 40 years. But I only know a few phrases. I took German in the university! LOL–why, I don’t know! I suppose because of my German background. In any case, I have purchased Rosetta Stone and need to crack it open and seriously study the French language. I am anticipating a need for being able to speak it. There is a French language group in Milwaukee that practices speaking with each other—I am thinking of joining it this summer. It is an hour trip–now that the roads are clear, maybe I will drum up the courage! Have a great day! Thank you for your visits, Robin!
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I enjoyed this poem very much. It really resonated with me. Thank you, for sharing!
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thank you, Cheryl, for taking the time to comment…I am happy that you felt goodness from the words…Blessings to you!
Jane
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People come and go like the wind. At the end of the day we have to move with it. Wonderful heartfelt post though I’m through with getting upset when people suddenly aren’t there any more. Phew I just realised how many posts you have!!!!!
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Yes, you are correct…life is a series of arrivals and departures! C’est la vie! You made me laugh when you wrote: “I just realize how many posts you have”—it is small, compared to many! I have been on WordPress since October of 2011. Many others that were on here prior to me, have published their writings…I haven’t…except for one very small short story…1 1/2 pages! LOL I do not have the money to do so, but even of I did, I do not think my writing is particularly unique, compared to those I have had the blessings to read on here.
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You dont need any money to publish a book. Use Amazon CreateSpace. Its an awesome self publishing website. I did all my books myself > In total 11 paparbacks. I can give you a hand if you like 🙂
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WOW…I didn’t realize that! I will try it in another week…this week is packed full. That is so good to know! Thank you, Andy!
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Absolutely no worries. Just drop by anytime for advice. You have to apply yourself when you do it so yes, you have to set some time aside to do it but its cheap 🙂
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I am very interested in the Course you have developed for Teachers of English as a Second Language. I am going to check it out more thoroughly in another week. I am adamant about teaching English online to Chinese students via Skype. I just have to get the proper equipment–i.e. a new phone line so that my Skype does not crash. Living in the cornfields limits fiber optics.
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Hi Jane > Yes well very welcome to have a nose around my TEFL website. There are some sample lesson plans you can download as pdfs or jpgs. The book itself is really big and filled with useful info. Yes, getting Skype running smoothly is essential. Let me know how you get on.
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Thank you so much, Andy! I am booked this week but next week I will go at it full force. Thank you so much for the lessons! Blessings to you and your family!
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Anytime Jane 🙂 Always happy to help
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