Why Don’t I Write MORE or Less? Or, is it MORE or LESS that I write?
Well, questions with many responses.
I begin an idea at the very top of my head and then I think of another idea and then my mind becomes flooded with even more ideas!v I become overwhelmed! Which idea should I begin with?
Then, over in another corner of my brain, the questioning punctuates my thoughts: What IF I write this and then they think that? Oh my goodness, someone will read that! I can’t say that can I? What will they think of me if they read that? Of course, everyone writes what they experience or have a hint of experience, but if I write that, they WILL think I did it, won’t they? But then, do they think everyone who writes a murder mystery actually committed a murder? What if someone thinks I am writing about them and I am NOT writing about them? But they think I am writing about them. Maybe I am but maybe my words are just a fantasy? Or, maybe I am writing about them? Or, perhaps I am writing about myself? Oh my goodness, I did write about myself! Now my secret is out!
Then my ideas change. Just because I wrote that yesterday, that does not mean I think the same today or tomorrow!
Then begins the self-conflagration: If I write that, I must be a horrible person? Am I a sociopath and not know it? Am I too moralistic? Who do I think I am that I should write that? WHO do you THINK YOU ARE—preaching to the world? “Clean up your own backyard!”
Or the questions arise about my writing style: Do you think others have not already said that? What is so unique about that line? How boring! You can’t say that! Oh my goodness, you thought that?!
Just a few of the fleeting thoughts that my brain wrestles with each time I sit down to write.
P.S. The BEST part of this entry is the beautiful abstract work of art by my grandson, Ayden Michael Krenn. when he was in Kindergarten. He is now in 5th grade! I give him canvas to paint when I see him and hope he will continue to paint!
This link can take you to see Ayden’s work of art: https://johannisthinking.com/page/11/