Beginnings enter
Comings and goings…Exit
Final letting go

Isn’t this is what LIFE is all about?
if you do not try, you will never know
even if you do not succeed the first time
try again…
again …
again…
again…
again…
again…
again…
again…
again…
until your last breath
do not ever give up
give it one more try!
I cannot tell you how many times I have begun something and then it flops. I have had more failures than successes. On those dark days, I remind myself of what I did accomplish. I have to believe in myself, because it all starts with that inner conviction that I can and will do it! I must take my dream and live it.
Regardless of the naysayers and all those who tell me it is not possible. I have had acquaintances say to me, “past behavior is a pretty good indicator of future behavior.” Then therapists express these words, “Well, this is a pattern in your life. It is very difficult, if not impossible to change” and even religious people who thrive on the conviction that with “Jesus, all things are possible”– then tell me, “You have low self-esteem and that is impossible to change at your age.” So, I think, what happened to the power of Jesus? I have had people call me a “sucker”–as one friend said to me, “The S-word is emblazoned on your forehead–this will always be your situation because you love too much.” How can anyone love too much? I also have people tell me that I do not love myself enough. That phrase really gets my goat. It is an easy cliché that people love to throw around. If I did not love myself, WHY would I keep on trying? Because I am willing to risk and love, that does not mean I do not love myself. And if I was such a loser, I wouldn’t even try …I would not try to go out of myself and risk loving others.
If I listened to all of those naysayers, I may as well fold up the game of checkers and call it a life.
Guess what I say to all of those naysayers?
“I am going to give it another try!”
I love this quote by Martha Graham: “There is a vitality, a life force, an energy, a quickening that is translated through you into action, and because there is only one of you in all time, this expression is unique. And if you block it, it will never exist through any other medium and will be lost.” Martha Graham
I have to believe in myself and in my abilities and do it! I begin to think of all the people who helped me this far. Those who have helped me return to my balance are those who have taken the time to listen and not label me or pronounce final judgment on me. Then I begin to think of all the things I still need to do and can do!
I like the story of Thomas Edison when asked by a young reporter if he was about to give up on inventing the electric light bulb. Edison replied something similar to that he now knew 9,000 ways that the light bulb would not work! Imagine that? And it was only after the 9,001th time that Edison succeeded in inventing the electric light bulb! Maybe the numbers are not accurate but the point is right on target. No matter how many times you fail, the next time may be the success!
Spread that news when someone you know is about to give up!
I cannot find the poem, but I remember the title from 1968, “Don’t give up! Give it one more try!” I do not know who the poet was but that line has never left me through all these many years. I have had great personal losses. I have not been that successful at relationships. I have had my life’s dreams altered. I have ended up in a completely different direction than from where I began my life. The changes have not come easy and because I am the kind of person where my passion runs deep, I have felt the loss deeply. I am sure I have disappointed people along the way and sometimes I have disappointed myself. But I would always come back to that line: “Don’t give up; give it one more try.” That is all we can do…is try and hope for the best. We are humans. We make mistakes…but we should never, ever quit. We are all in this together.
Sometimes we just need one person to believe in us! One person to say, “Give it one more try!”
When I was a teacher, I would try to encourage the students to give it one more try. I would encourage them onward! I do not know if I always succeeded at saying at the correct time or not, of doing that or not, but I tried more often than I didn’t. I know that sometimes people get really annoyed with me, because I am urging them forward. But then I remember that sometimes I thought and felt that way too–thinking “Why don’t they just leave me alone! Why don’t they just go away and let me crash and burn!” But, really, deep down I did not want them to give up on me. I was pleading in my own stubborn way, “prove to me that I am someone, because at this moment in time, I do not feel like I am. ”
When we think we have nothing to offer the world, we can offer this simple phrase to someone: “Give it one more try!” It could change a life! Not only that, it could save a life. This is how important one person is to another!
Yesterday morning as Ayden, now 7, and Nadia, 5 and one half (very important) and I were walking into Church, Ayden piped up, “I think God has services at 9:30 because He FINALLY wakes up! He has to sleep in because we make Him so tired during the week, with His listening to all of our problems!”

we can practice any religion
and still…
we all live in the heart of God
we each find our own path
our own way of blending into the universe
I may —
kneel
bow
burn incense
display flowers
wear a cross
carry the Koran
carry the Bible
consult my magic crystals
believe in reincarnation
We are ALL seeking the same ONENESS
we are all striving to find the Center
we are all seeking LOVE
let us allow the individual ways of reaching LOVE be a source of unity among us
we are all working for GOOD on our soul journey
may we celebrate our diversity
celebrate that we are on a journey together
celebrate our ONENESS
In ONENESS we will find each other
we are all interconnected
“Basic goodness” and “enlightened society” are key concepts in the Shambhala tradition. However, “good” here does not mean good as opposed to bad, but rather “pure, intrinsically good.” That is, despite our struggles and confusion, there is something essentially good about our existence as human beings.”–Sakyong Mipham Rinpoche Dragon, 2013.
We are reminded of the words of Anna Frank: “Despite everything, I believe people are really good at heart.”
Each day is a new beginning…a new day to accept the goodness in oneself and leave all the unsolved mysteries behind us…and go forward believing in ourselves and in one another. More and more I see how it is important to think the best of the other…to always believe that inside of themselves are the good intentions…that good intention is what motivates them to be joyful and to give without asking in return.
We have been trained so often in our lives to think that things are not possible. We may have experienced numerous occasions when we were told: “That is not right!” “You almost have it!” “No, that is not the correct approach.” We are steeped in doubts about our selves. We think we are never quite “good enough.” What does that mean anyway, “not good enough?” We hear these negative messages over and over and are told, “No, this is not meant for you”…”You are too old for this position”…”You are over qualified”…”You ask too many questions”…”You have to learn to play the game”…”You should not think so differently”…”You have no choices in life. There is this little dot. That is you…and everything else around you is beyond you or your influence.” WOW! All of those negative things I have heard repeatedly, over and over, in my lifetime.
Now, I am called upon to turn-off those negative thoughts. For our thoughts become our actions…our way of being! I am replacing them with love and gentleness towards myself–I look into the mirror each morning and say, “Jane, I love you!” Hey, why not? Why are we so quick to say the negative to ourselves—NO, we need to shout, “Stop!” when those things come into our brains and begin speaking gentle, loving thoughts to that inner child. It is good to be good to yourself! Fortunately I came upon this quote in Rebecca Budd’s blog, CelebrationART: July 2014 (http://celebrationart.blogspot.ca/) :“There is a vitality, a life force, an energy, a quickening that is translated through you into action, and because there is only one of you in all time, this expression is unique. And if you block it, it will never exist through any other medium and will be lost.” Martha Graham
This quote and the use of it by Rebecca Budd gave me the impetus to move on!
I have tried many different paths…I have succeeded in each one for a time. Then, that path ends and a new one emerges. However, each time, it seems it has taken a bit longer for me to see in which direction to go. The rejections have worn me down. Then I have to begin to remember the positives of each experience. Yes, it is difficult for me. I will tell the truth –sometimes months—the ultimate rejection and end of each segment of my life—almost unbearable. Then somehow, something occurs, mystically, and breaks through the clouds of depression and a ray of sunlight begins to light the path for me again. Once more, I gather up my courage and begin the walk down the path. I do not know how I manage to get going, but I have to believe in myself to get back up and start again. I will tell you many, many tears are shed before this happens. Depression hits me deeply. Then out of nowhere, someone comes along and lifts me out of it. Each time, an unknown person, suddenly enters my life–they may only stay for a little span of time–maybe they are present to me in a single word or the speaking of one sentence–but they stay long enough to listen…to allow me to be me …that person gives me enough to spur me onwards! This moment then speaks to me of the intrinsic goodness of humans! For this one person helps me to move bravely forward into living again! I cannot stress enough how much what we say, what we do, affects one another…how much we may influence another, even though we may be completely unaware of our impact. This knowledge brings with it a great responsibility on my part. I know I must be more careful of “right speech,” “right action,” and “right thought.” I also know I fail at it miserably–but all I can do is ask forgiveness…and move on and try to be a better person in my next moment of living.
This last time, it has taken a long, long time for a path to come my way. I began this blog in the Fall of 2011. I think one of my former students told me about WordPress–yes, “the student becomes the teacher.” Another student, Huzaifa, said to me, “Ms. Johann, don’t waste your life playing Farmville!” I admit that I had become somewhat addicted to it and was the proud owner of eight imaginary farms. What this student said to me was not lost on me. It woke me up! Then I began this blog…the first year I did not write much. I was so hesitant to put my thoughts out into the universe. I was frightened by my thoughts. I was frightened by how others would react to what I said. But, little by little, I put my thoughts out there.
I know I am not a great writer and probably everything that can be said in this limited world of ours has already been said. But I do know that writing gives me purpose and maybe no one says it quite like I may say it…so I continue writing.
So, believe in each other. Encourage each other! Forgive each other — because we are all humans — we are all struggling on the path to wholeness. We need each other and we need compassion for one another as we continue towards the LIGHT. Above all, believe in the intrinsic goodness of each human being! and in yourself! Take your heart off of the fencepost and give your heart to yourself (that is most important) and to those you meet along the way!

There are times when one has to travel alone. We have to believe in ourselves and find our way and dispel all the negative thoughts and emotions. All the crazy things people told us as to WHY it was not possible. As much as one enjoys the companionship of others, we may have to go it alone. Sometimes we have to jump out of the mold and take that delightful risk and go forward –sometimes it is the only way!
Dedicated to n. h. bourne
she speaks her truth with strength
selective of her words, drawing from her resilient bank
affirming in her speech
with the words she does bequeath
Mother Nature and she are friends
as the gardens she does attend
the silent one who supports so many with the essence
gifting them with an offering of her timely presence
–in this crazy world of ours, giving of time in a span of hours
is not something most will readily shower–
strong in her convictions, speaking them gentle but clear
humanity and Mother Earth she does hold dear
no matter what obstacle comes her way
independently she shoulders it without dismay
the gentle persuasion of this feminine mystique
delivered by her — ever so discreet–
when leaving her, one departs with assurance
that hope, faith and love are a natural cadence
I watched the caterpillar
Move confidently up the length of the stem
up and over and around and down again
repeating her pattern from stem to stem…
soon it was introverted–
suspended upside down
as the blade of grass bent with the breeze…
caterpillar’s mind was in a spiral whirlwind
moving freshly forward into a new reality…
…a new awareness…
you can never ever go back to where you were
there is no back…
only forward movement…
each touch…each experience
similar in some way to what was previous
but now with a different nuance
different perspective…
you are forever changed…
evolving on the spiral staircase
(The image is copyright free and in the public domain anywhere that extends copyrights 70 years after death or at least 120 years after publication when the original illustrator is unknown.)
Teachers as wise as Lao Tzu have extolled the virtues of patience – “I have just three things to teach: simplicity, patience, compassion. These three are your greatest treasures.” – See more at: http://www.mindfueldaily.com/livewell/7-inspiring-thoughts-about-patience#sthash.doObppHw.dpuf
Simplicity~
petal openness
joy without reservation
just being itself
Patience~
tiny seeds of life
nurtured daily with loving
persevering will
Compassion~
growing
being, becoming, loving, forgiving
interconnection
we stepped into a dream
breathing in
cascading heartbeat doves
winging our way into love
*
we stepped into a dream
water-colored moments
Spring came into Autumn
no hint of the elusive phantom
*
we stepped into a dream
penetrating walls of silence
opening up new auras
and countless beaches
*
we stepped into a dream
for a little while
seeing moments of paradise
blossoming mornings of edelweiss
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