Wash Away the Illusion of Loneliness

       
 
 
what is loneliness?

it is an illusion

isolation confusion

fear of being by oneself

feeling separate on the life shelf

unconnected and dismayed

climb out of yourself  and face the day

be gentle with yourself

 inconvenience oneself

accept that you are loveable

not only culpable

accept that you are part of something greater than yourself

you must bring oneself

to the waiting God of LOVE

you are never alone…hand and glove

…remember…go your Center

be at peace in Love tender

passionate desire

The Black Stallion (film)

The Black Stallion (film) (Photo credit: Wikipedia)

desire…noble, defenseless desire seeks its want

you find it within yourself…your happiness you flaunt

tension deliciously mounts with numerous increases as you jaunt

your heart runs, ignoring the geo-political thread detente

 

 

…like the  black stallion in the dark night, speeding onward without delay

…like the blue wave cresting over itself, heedless of any obstacle in its way

…like the brilliance of a summer sunset, streaking its  copper orange passion hues through sky’s roadway

 

Waves crashing

Waves crashing (Photo credit: Wikipedia)

your heart knows no bounds

… turns in every possible direction

flounders… stumbling over its own emotions…no selection

…cascading into

turbulent joy, no honorable mention

your heart runs and runs…

Waves crashing on rocks on the Southern Oregon...

Waves crashing on rocks on the Southern Oregon Coast. (Photo credit: Wikipedia)

…oblivious of what is not there

…oblivious of the blank  stares

 ..oblivious of the one way flare

 

UNTIL

 

until…you see you are running alone 

until…you feel unrequited desire…no one home

until…you capture your sigh, realizing your heart was on loan

Waves crashing over rocks, Porto Moniz, Madeir...

Waves crashing over rocks, Porto Moniz, Madeira, Portugal (Photo credit: Wikipedia)


soul searching …part II

An overall view of an LG EnV mobile/cell phone.

An overall view of an LG EnV mobile/cell phone. (Photo credit: Wikipedia)

what is that spark that first ignites?

the sudden click of a smile across the internet site

…the recognition…the someone other…finds you…

of all the billion people on the planet…you…it must be true

that one smiling click found you…and the intensity builds…

you find yourself stumbling  steep into  the love guild

crafting your every word…longing to be heard

your heart skips at every sound of the computer screen

you drop EVERYTHING you are doing to reach love pristine

the cell phone beeps and a text is waiting for your word

of course you will respond, you silly bird

you plan your day around the love you seek

clean the closet…wait for the sound…don’t go too far

or out of bounds…do the dishes…don’t wander to the stars

however, you still WONDER…and get carried away

you let reality slip…and your senses do stray

you have never had eye meets eye

you have never heard the person’s sigh

or…the slight brush of the hand against yours…

but you are convinced that she is yours for sure!

she tells you, “No”…but you do not hear it still

your brain runs past it and your heart does what it will

you are so convinced and determined to try

even if it never happens you will not let your love die

why are you so persistent, what is it that you refuse to hear?

why do you not hear the insistence, what is it that you seem to fear?

soul searching

love is never easy even if there is no obvious fight

emotional, physical love can carry you to great heights

intensity transforms  you to new sights

Good Souls
Good Souls (Photo credit: Wikipedia)

then reality sets in…and you have to set things right

 

To my Daughter, Lara, upon her Graduation from Marquette University

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Today, May 19, 2013,  my daughter, Lara, is going to graduate from Marquette University! I am so proud of her and all of her accomplishments and growth during these past four years! How do I express all the feelings of joy that are in my heart this day for her!  Lara accepted her gifts and talents and used them to create a dream come true.

First of all, let me write this disclaimer, Lara will be annoyed with me for writing this page and singing her praises. But I, as her mother, know this child! I have seen her grow through this last 22 years…I have seen her happy smiles and shy demeanor blossom into this beautiful, out-going yet reserved, compassionate young woman. I am so proud of her and her accomplishments ever since her Light Being came into this world!  So, she will just have to bear this mother pride for today. Today at the Baccalaureate Mass for the Graduates, my tears did begin to flow… how beautiful my daughter, Lara, has always been to me, continues to be, and her gift to the world.   I hope she grants me this indulgence — I want to share some GOOD NEWS for this world…and the possibility of promise and that someone, Lara, made this possibility into a reality!

We live in the countryside, in a rural setting, an hour from the city of Milwaukee — a city where so much activity occurs daily as the breeze from Lake Michigan flows into the city. An hour may not seem like a great distance to some, but I remember when the day came to drive Lara into Milwaukee to visit Marquette University for the first time. We had reached as far as the Milwaukee Brewers Baseball Stadium, and Lara remarked: “Mom, this is further from home than I realized!”  This was after forty-five minutes of driving that took us into the heart of the downtown. I could sense that for her, this was a “great distance” and felt her bit of angst that she was embarking on a great journey– leaving home for the first time.

I graduated from Marquette University in 1974…now it is 2013…and my daughter followed in my footsteps. Unbelievable to me! I did not encourage her in the least to go to this college…it had to be her own choice.  When she told me her plan after completing her high school diploma, I was amazed and so happy with her decision. Now, four years later, she has completed another part of her journey in life. She was blessed with scholarships and she also was accepted into the work/study program. Lara held a job in the Student Union for four years, eventually becoming one of the Student Managers. Yesterday, she received recognition for this service at a banquet in which the Manager of her particular work, said this about her: “Lara was a strong force in our program. She was a silent leader–she was unassuming and dependable and a leader who was respected by the other students. I appreciate this immensely from her!”   So proud I am of her!

While a student, Lara not only studied diligently, worked to support her education, but also volunteered her time when she was not studying or working! Lara was always involved in some outside activity.  Her freshman year she belonged to the Step-up   [http://stepupmu.webs.com/] –the Marquette Chapter, established in 2009 on campus,  is described as a “group of students passionate about seeing change in the world.” The program specifically focused on educating students about the 1994 Rwandan genocide. This organization increases awareness among the students that the family of humans  does not know land or ocean boundaries.  The Step-up Organization raises cultural awareness of what is being done in Rwanda today and how the students can help to eradicate genocide in the thinking of society and specifically help rebuild the Rwandan women, by educating the student and staff population, and raises funds to support the healing of Rwandan women who were the victims of sexual-based violence.

Lara’s freshman year was her initiation into this program as a full time member and participant, by sophomore year, she was Secretary of the Organization and in her Junior Year she served as President of the organization on campus.  I find her dedication to this cause of reaching beyond the borders of our country, across the ocean, as an extension of her willingness to go beyond her own comfort zone and to be a positive difference in this world.  In ten days, Lara is going to take this humanitarian drive of hers even further, when she leaves as a Peace Corps volunteer for Togo, West Africa for the next two years. [You can imagine the tugs that are happening on my mother heart strings!].  I am so proud of her desire to be of service to others!

Lara’s first summer after freshman year, was an invitation to be a Program Assistant for the Freshman Frontier Program at Marquette University. During this time she designed and  implemented academic and social programs for incoming freshmen. She also served as Resident Assistant in the residence hall for the same program.

In addition to this, during her sophomore year, Lara volunteered as a tutor at the Adult Learning Center in Milwaukee. In her junior year, she  volunteered two years, two nights a week, as a tutor at the International Learning Center. In this atmosphere her love of other people and other cultures grew.  What this says to me about Lara is that she could have used her time for herself, but unselfishly she gave her free time to others and increased her own awareness of the needs of others and her sense of sharing her own gifts to help our world.

In Lara’s sophomore year, she spent her Christmas vacation working in New Orleans with Habitat for Humanity.  Throughout her four years, Lara went beyond herself and stretched her understanding and sense of duty by involving herself in activities that would help others.

Lara also has a sense of civic pride, and was an active participant and intern in several political organizations during her four years. She served a semester an an intern for the then Senator Herbert Kohl of Wisconsin. She worked on the Walker Recall Campaign, helped with President Obama’s campaign as a member of the Marquette University chapter of Democratic Students and was an active participant for Sen. Tammy Baldwin’s campaign for U. S. Senator.  This past school year, Lara was elected as Vice-President of Marquette Democrats and then was chosen to be  the Student President of  M.U.’s Young Democrats on campus.

Through all of her involvement, Lara kept her focus on her studies and has respected the gift in herself. Lara studied hard and gave herself fully to her four years as a student at this university. She rightfully deserves to be proud of herself and her accomplishments. We are all proud of her and how she has become her own person and continues to be a gift to the world, as she in turn, graciously receives all that life has to offer.

Yesterday at the graduation, she received the 2013 Frank Mazzulla Memorial Award that is given to the outstanding senior who represents Marquette’s values of excellence, leadership, service and faith.   I think this is one of the most blessed awards to receive. Lara certainly gave her all to her studies and to volunteer requests as a student during her four years.

Lara also was inducted into Sigma Tau Delta, International English Honor Society. She also had her story published in the Marquette Literary Review  [http://www.marquette.edu/english/litreview/documents/MLRIssue4.pdf].

I thank the people at Marquette University, especially Mrs. Mary L.  Minson  and Ms. Rebecca A. D’AMore, for their unwavering faith in Lara’s potential as a student at Marquette University. They guided her safely throughout her life as a student at Marquette and were an invaluable and priceless  support to her!

Congratulations to Lara and all of her accomplishments! She knows that I love her with all of my heart!  I thank the God of Love for bringing her into my life and into our family. We are blessed with a Light Being…and I ask the God of Love to continue to guide her gently through her life and bless her with love of self and of others to keep her strong in our world.  When she was in first grade she said to me, “Snowmen may melt, but never your heart.”  Her heart is strong and the only melting that is taking place is her love melting over the world and in my heart!

Honors & Awards

Wisconsin Women in Government (WWIG) 2011 Scholarship recipient
Freshman Frontier Program 2011 Scholarship recipient
2013 Frank Mazzulla Memorial Award

Inducted into Sigma Tau Delta, Honorary International English

“Let me count the ways”…weather in Wisconsin is like a love affair [Parody of Sonnet 43- “How Do I Love Thee?” by Elizabeth Barrett Browning

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Cool Melting Patterned Snow 5th to 6th 006 (Photo credit: catchesthelight)

Dedicated to Cheri

…A poet in her own “write”

the comparison of Wisconsin weather to a love affair originated from her…

thank you!

How do I love Wisconsin? Let me count the ways

I love thee to the depth of the snowfall, the length of the raindrops and the height of the sun

All your crazy weather pattern days, while the wind is out there to play

All  your crazy leaps from from steaming hot to winter fun

Furnace days quickly become air-conditioning freeze…Akin to a love affair, as you plunge  headlong

Casting all fear aside, you jump right in with ever so huge strides

A sense of urgency hoping to go forward and belong

Love carries you on a thrilling, fantastic ride

Sometimes hurting needs to forget, never knowing a thought of  regret

Flying into it headstrong…enjoying it all before it is gone

You never how long it is going to last…when you will have to leave it all and reset

Never knowing how long it will last,  never knowing if it will become a sad song

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Sonnets from the Portuguese Man o' War

Sonnets from the Portuguese Man o’ War (Photo credit: prodigaldog)

Sonnet 43 – How do I love thee? Let me count the ways

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How do I love thee? Let me count the ways.
I love thee to the depth and breadth and height
My soul can reach, when feeling out of sight
For the ends of Being and ideal Grace.
I love thee to the level of everyday’s
Most quiet need, by sun and candle-light.
I love thee freely, as men strive for Right;
I love thee purely, as they turn from Praise.
I love thee with the passion put to use
In my old griefs, and with my childhood’s faith.
I love thee with a love I seemed to lose
With my lost saints,—I love thee with the breath,
Smiles, tears, of all my life!—and, if God choose,
I shall but love thee better after death.

Elizabeth Barrett Browning

Related Sites:

“– in fact, it’s only been around for a little over 150 years. Prominent Victorian poet Elizabeth Barrett Browning first published the poem in 1850.”  http://www.shmoop.com/how-do-i-love-thee-sonnet-43/

Mothers love…even when it hurts

what can a Mother do

even if it means being misunderstood

what can a Mother do

but protect her child’s womanhood

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what can a Mother do

when she sees her child hurt

what can a Mother do

but try to provide her comfort

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what can a Mother do

but sacrifice her own joy for the safety of her child

what can a Mother do

even if it means her exile

what can a Mother do

even if she is reviled

what can a Mother do

but love her child

 

 

Mother and Child, 1939

Mother and Child, 1939 (Photo credit: Wikipedia)

what can a Mother do

but love her child